disragarding the lies.

how easy it has become to believe lies that satan places in my head!

i have always always struggled a bit with self-doubt. and when i say "a bit", i mean a lot. i constantly find myself easily giving in to the idea that i can't do something that i want to do. it happens everyday, and i'm basically sick of it. it's time for confidence to be something that i'm not scared of.

i may not be the best singer in the world, but i've accomplished a good bit that i have my voice to thank for.

i may not play guitar or piano better than a lot of people i know, but i ought to be content and thankful for the ability that i do have.

i may always feel like i'm bothering others, or in someone else's way, but it's time to stop thinking that way.

we spend so much time comparing ourselves to others. we compare financial statuses, dating statuses, talents, abilities, strongpoints, and even fears and problems. this is 100% a waste of our time, and i, for one, am sick of it. in philippians, paul says to be content in all circumstances. good or bad. whether you're lying on your deathbed or standing at the alter on your wedding day. i am praying for the strength to believe this and do it. join me, will you?

happy memorial day. a lot of people have sacrificed a lot for you and me. thank them today.

self-ish.

i am that. i pray that i can no longer be. change me, oh God.

after the last tear falls, there is love.

quick update, for anyone that reads this...

just got back from a week-ish at disney world. my first time, and loved it about 1000 x more than i thought i would. it really is very magical.

the Lord has been teaching me a lot about myself lately. really scary things that are hard to even admit to myself. but these lessons are necessary, especially where i am right now.

it's been about a month since my life changed forever. i never expected to learn so much from a relationship ending, and it's been a really strange but rewarding time. things just keep getting better.

it looks as though an extended amount of time living in Kenya is in my future. and that is largely what keeps me going.

lately i've been shown many things that would fall into the category of "unexpected". unexpected decisions, unexpected plans, unexpected people, unexpected conversations, unexpected friendships. no matter how unexpected, all of these have been greatly appreciated and enjoyed.

i love my life. my Father has been quite graceful and faithful.